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Culture and Sociological Experiments: LiveJournal
Note: This is from my current active journal, which is here. I decided to post it to my old LJ, since it's actually about LJ. I hope I cut-tagged this correctly, it's been a while since I used this thing.

It's interesting to me that LiveJournal is about to move to an open membership base. I am very curious about how the great sociological experiment that is LiveJournal is going to change because of this decision.
A Curious Economy )
Current Mood:
interested interested
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Just to let people know - if you notice that I have dropped you from my friends list, please do not be offended. I have very little time these days for reading at the computer, and very few journals which I actually read frequently. The ones I read the most have remained. Most of my original friends list has been cleared out for this reason - this is no reflection on any one or for any particular reason other than my own time and convenience. Thanks, guys.

BTW - still posting frantically over here. More than I should be, considering the aforementioned lack of time. It's an addiction, whatcha gonna do?

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haven't been around for a while, I know, and for those who have been reading my private journal, here's the scoop: our domain name got hijacked! Stolen right out from under our noses with 11 months left on the registration we paid for. After much wrangling, arguing and swearing, we managed to get a new domain FREE from the company that sold us the last one. We're not real comfortable with this, since apparantly they are completely unable to do a damn thing about it if someone steals this one, too. *sigh*

THEN, after still more wrangling, I finally got my journal back online yesterday. So, if you have been reading my "not-livejournal" journal it is now at http://www.negative-g.com/mental_rose , NOT http://www.negative-g.net. Paul's journal, for those who've been reading that, is now at http://www.negative-g.com/Paul/Blog/blogger.html .

Just a note to those folks on my friends list: I do still read my friends list on a fairly regular basis. Things here have been nuts, and I just don't make comments much anymore, as my brain is full of Christmas and a husband who is now having some minor (we hope) heart trouble and a toddler and a business and unmedicated panic attacks and idiot jerk insurance people and so on. But I do read, and enjoy reading what you've written, so I hope folks don't take me off their friends lists anytime soon!

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Well, I finally found a journalling software that I can use with our provider. I couldn't use MoveableType (although I really wanted to) because our server doesn't have the correct version of SQL available. I can, however, use Greymatter. Turned out to be not too-terribly hard to install on the server, and I'm having pretty good luck with the whole "design your own template" thing, which I haven't tried before - I've always modified existing LJ templates. This one is pure me, which explains why it looks like it needs some polishing yet. It does. But it's a good start.

SO, the upshot of that is that I'll be moving my main journal over to the new site, which is at http://www.negative-g.net/mental_rose . I'll still be checking in on LJ, there's too many people here that I really don't want to lose track of, but for anyone who's got a link to me or a bookmark, it's time to update 'em, because most of my stuff will be at this new site from now on!

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working with my styles again. Helps me to focus myself, get back into a good frame of mind and ready to move back into the world. My graphics are getting better; a combination of brand-new, up-to-date killer software and tons of practice with the cards and the site.

We went into Owensboro today and had chinese at House of Canton. Bond is an eggroll junkie. We even got him to try a California roll, but the kelp around the outside turned him off, I think. We were going to go to Hobby Lobby - this is Paul-style romance, he HATES craft stuff. I was going to get to browse the sewing gear and look for trim for the gown I've had to put off - I have to get back in gear on it, or it will NEVER get done in time for Twelfth Night. Also, I was going to get another opportunity to drool over the Uber-Easel, a fabulous box easel with drawers and compartments for everything and the cat, and which costs over $100, so I'll never never get it.

But, Hobby Lobby was closed, so instead we went to the bookstore, and I drooled over the 5-inch-thick book on how to use my new software. The one that cost $50, which means I can't buy it, either. Along with several hundred dollars worth of books on HTML, Java and Flash how-to's and a stack of fantasy novels and manga.

Does anyone notice a pattern in the things I want lately??

Current Mood:
calm calm
Current Music:
Dervish - Peigyn mo chroy
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Thanks, it's November and I don't appreciate having to worry about tornadoes at this time of the year. Whoever's working the storm switch this evening needs to stop drinking and get back on the job right now.
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I have a dilemma. I like LiveJournal - I really, really do. I tried all kinds of journaling sites before I stumbled onto this one, and I hated them, they were a large pain in the ass. I really like my friends lists, and the communities.

On the other hand, LJ has its limitations, and those limitations are starting to feel like a too-tight, itchy skin. There are things I'd like to try that just DO NOT WORK on LiveJournal for one reason or another; it may be that at my level of programming ability (really, really really low), they won't work for me anywhere, I don't know.

In any case, I'm thinking of moving my main blog off of LJ and onto Paul's web space. Not like a secondary blog - those that I start, and I start plenty, believe me, all flop for lack of time. I think I just like making them. I am outgrowing this space somehow, I think. Anyway, I'm curious - how many of my friend's list would continue to read, were I not on LJ? Would I need to continue to back up entries here, as some others do, to keep others up-to-date?

So, just because I like playing with the poll creator:

Poll #74244 Quick survey
Open to: All, detailed results viewable to: All, participants: 11

If I took my main journal off LJ and published it elsewhere, would you read it?

View Answers

yes
7 (63.6%)

no
3 (27.3%)

I'm only voting in this poll because I'm trying to take all the polls on LJ (if you're not even remotely interested in my journal and are just 'poll surfing', PLEASE use this option!)
1 (9.1%)

Current Mood:
thoughtful thoughtful
Current Music:
Def Leppard - Now
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to let folks know that I'm still around. Every so often I just need to disappear, when things are really bad for me. I promise i'm healthy and fine; I just needed to be away from people in general. I did read, and appreciate, the offers of help and friendly ears from everyone that offered on and off LJ, and I hope no one was hurt when I didn't take them up on it - I just needed alone-ness on this one.
Current Mood:
about halfway up the pit wall
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There's a lot in my head today, and none of it is coming out very well. I feel like my brain is running around in tight little circles today - frantic. Not to worry anyone, but I think I'm approaching my saturation point lately. I feel ready to run.

The funny thing is, nothing is bad. Oh, we're pretty tight here, moneywise. There's not a lot to be had, and large bills to pay all the time. A couple of fairly forceful requests for payments. It never seems to end. But, there is also enough money coming in to pay them, and everyone gets something. So, that's not bad. S&D is taking up lots of my time, which is a good thing, if stressful. Bond is . . .well, he's two, and all the good and bad things that come along with being two. Paul is being so supportive of this business venture, and so loving about helping me with ideas, it's amazing. I have friends, too. Real friends, who can listen to me bitch and watch me lose my temper with them and then forgive me and come back for more.

My life is good. Why am I so afraid? Why do I feel like crying so much lately? I don't understand, and I'm tired. I just want it to stop. It's these times that disappearing seems like a viable option to me. I can't, I won't . . .but I want to.

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Paul fixed the soundcard and the video card on my machine this evening. This is a Good Thing; I can now listen to Shoutcast on my machine, and can play Roller Coaster Tycoon 2 when I have a spare second. Which isn't often.

I am pleasantly relaxed this evening for the first time in days and weeks. While I don't expect it to last long, I am going to revel in it while it's here. And to go along with that, I'd just like to say that Parmesian Cheese Popcorn is fantastic.

Current Mood:
calm calm
Current Music:
Enigma - Mea Culpa
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I HAVE. . .


from a conversation with a friend: "This client is driving me nuts today!"
"I'm sorry. I'd send you some chocolate to make you feel better, but I don't have any. I guess I'll just send you mental chocolate instead."


[edit] Nope. Not a test. Not a quiz. It's an inside joke, and I drawed it meself!! [end childish, badly spelled edit]

Current Mood:
chocolatey
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Seen in the local Holiday Foods this afternoon:

Current Mood:
cracking up . . .
Current Music:
The Twelve Pains of christmas
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there is
frost in
the crispy air
and on the
silver ground.
It's beautiful,
and i'd write
a better poem
if the words
would just unstick themselves
from the corners of my brain
and
get
onto
that
damn
paper.
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Finally, I got time to sit down and write more on my novel!!
The thing about this novel is, when I signed up for it, the whole big deal with the cards hadn't broken - I honestly didn't think we'd be able to sell them this year yet. So I figured I'd have time to write 2,000 words a day. Ha - HA, I say! But I'm going to do what I can with this - the story I am currently pulling out of my butt (ow!) is shaping up as well as a 1200 word shred of story can at the moment, and while I honestly doubt I'll make the 50,000 words, I'll have the satisfction of knowing that I tried my best and wrote the longest (fiction) piece I've ever done.

In other news, I have been working pretty much all day again. So much for weekends, huh? The site is up to over 4,000 hits now, and not a week old yet. If even just 1% of those hits translate into one box of cards sold, we'll have done so much better than we expected to this season it'll be amazing.

Bond has been ill the last couple of days, but he seems to be feeling better today. He's still pretty stuffed up in the evenings. I ordered him a new coat via e-bay ($8 total cost!) - well, okay, it's not new. But warm and in good shape, and Bond's size is all we need. We're not picky. ;-) Should get here in a few days. Also 2 new pairs of footie pajamas and a warm hat. He was thrilled with his new pajamas, and asked for the yellow pair this evening for bedtime.

Said bedtime was difficult, though. He was very VERY fussy and inclined to throw fits, hit and kick this evening. Along with assorted stresses from work (and the lack of a break from same), I lost my temper with him and gave a spaking that was harder than it needed to be. After this, I felt dreadful and gave so many cuddles to the boy that the original point of discipline was probably lost completely. *sigh* So, I took the car and went out for a drive to get myself together. Felt much better after this, and finished off the rest of my work.

Tomorrow it's back to the grind (as opposed to what?). Bond and I have many errands to run. 'Twill be busy.

Current Mood:
content content
Current Music:
Heather Dale - Miles to Go
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I haven't had a chance to upload these yet; anyone who read's Paul's journal will have seen some of these already, but oh well.

Bond the Builder, because we had to scrap the mouse costume at the last second )

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SO - we all can acknowledge the fact that I am a sucky writer, I think. With that in mind, I'm writing for NaNoWriMo anyway. And in the spirit of "I like you all . . .no, really . . .why would you think I'm lying to you?", I have chosen to inflict upon share with you my opening paragraph. The rest of the novel (currently only about 535 words long) is hiding on another journal somewhere on LJ. If you find it, you win the fabulous prize of a blow to the 'ead and a kick to the teeth.

So, without further ado: the opening paragraph to the Novel
With No Discernable Plot!!

"It was altogether too cold. And, while no one could say that at this time of the morning it was too dark, there was something amiss that the dark seemed to make more obvious. Beside Rose in the bed, her husband slumbered on, blissfully unaware of his wife's wakeful fidgeting. Rose threw back the covers and stepped onto the hardwood floor; it felt like ice beneath her feet, and most of body cramped and shivered in sympathy for her abused toes. Swearing under her breath in a manner that would have shocked most of her ladies into swoons, she made her way around the bed and into the solar, where she stood, listening for some clue as to what had awakened her so early."

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The Scotsman )
Current Mood:
HA HA HA HA HA!!
Current Music:
Blackthorh - The Scotsman
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The electricity went out this morning. I don't know what time - I woke up to the sound of Bond crying because he was wet and cold, around 5:30 this morning.

It's interesting the habits you find you have in some situations. My immediate reaction to the lack of electricity was to run around the house lighting candles. Never mind that at 5:30 in the morning, it's supposed to be dark. And not that a candle would give any heat, had we needed it badly. My next reaction (just gotta laugh at this one) was to turn on the computer to check the electric company's website for information. Internet dependant? Oh, maybe just a little.

The power is back on, now, and Bond is watching a coaster movie. Sign that you let your child watch too much television: when telling him "no, the TV is broken right now" brings on a flurry of "I sorry"'s and a need to cuddle, because the only reason he can think of for not being able to watch television is that Mommy is angry with him about something. After this coaster movie, put on to convince him once and for all that I'm not angry, I think we'll go for a little music this morning.

Making some adjustments to Bond's costume- he went to PPP as Mini-Me, but that costume only really works if Paul dresses as Dr. Evil along with us. He doesn't want to dress this evening, but I had been assuming he would. SO - I bought some grey felt, and will make a headband with ears later on - Bond will be a mouse for Halloween. Simple.

Current Mood:
tired tired
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These are my flowers, which showed up unexpectedly on my doorstep this afternoon. Aren't they pretty? I love flowers. They were a thank-you from Moosh for pushing so hard to get the site up and running so soon.
Current Mood:
tired, but cheerful
Current Music:
Led Zeppelin - Stairway to Heaven
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[info]bifurcated - brand new syndicated lj for the Bifurcated Rivets weblog. A fountain of fantastic links. For an explanation of how syndication works, go here.

And in honor of it being (almost) Halloween and all, I present: The Pumpkin House of Horror. I can see my pumpkin carving skills have a long way to go.

This one is NOT in my CafePress store. May I present: Ghastly's Happy-Time Blow-Job Bib! (no nasty pictures or anything, but I'd still make sure my boss wasn't looking over my shoulder or anything, if I were you!)

Elvis is alive, and Lisa-Marie isn't really his daughter. The REAL Lisa Marie Presly has been living as Lisa Johansen in Scandanavia.
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